It’s Me Again Lord

by Beth Tidwell

Have you ever started your nightly prayer time with you might want to sit down Lord, this is going to be a long one?” No?  Only me?

My morning prayers are much shorter than my nightly ones.  I wake up and thank God for another day, ask Him to bless my family & friends, keep them safe/healthy, and then ask Him to hold my hand tightly (like a parent walking across a busy road with their little one).  The day starts off great!  Then, my hand slips or I PULL it free and end up needing a spanking.  I catch myself being judgmental, irritated, unloving, and bam I’m see Jesus throwing up his hands. Romans 7:15 ~ I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do.

He loves me anyway.

I commit to reading my bible more.  Then, I find myself on Facebook instead.  

I commit to being kind.  Then, I holler at my husband for something insignificant. 

I commit to focusing on only positive things.    Then, I allow negativity to steer my attitude.

I want to be a better servant.  Then, I think I’m not comfortable with_____________ and don’t do it. 

He loves me anyway.

I want to be the child of God that He knows I’m capable of being. Don’t we all?  Shoot, I even want to be the person my dog thinks I am.  Regardless of my daily failures, He is always waiting with His arms wide open (thank you Jesus) to let me lay my failures at His feet.  Then, He hugs my heart.  Why?  Because that’s who He is.  He IS love and His love never fails.  

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10

I’m thankful for the Holy Spirit.  I’m thankful that I get smacked on the head as I call it.  I’m thankful that God doesn’t keep score.  I’m thankful for His continuous grace, mercy and love.   I’m thankful for forgiveness.  Tomorrow is a new day.  I will begin again and try my best to shine His light.  Maybe I won’t have to ask the good Lord to sit down tonight.

Prayer: Dear God, thank You for being the ultimate example of light in my life.  Please help me to represent your light with confidence, boldness, and authenticity. In times when I do not always represent your light, I ask for your forgiveness and spirit to restore your joy. Please draw those who You see fit for me to be a witness. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.


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